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okay so im sitting at my boyfriends house. yee
awsome :] and he just ate icecream and wouldnt give me any.. wow! lmfao
uhh im hoping to see juno tommarow with him!! i want to see that movie so bad
and randii said it was good! so i belive her...
i want to hang out with devan and randii... one of you will read this
and hopefully comment!!! lol
ew my boyfriend just said i cant wait to watch porn.. WTF weirdo.. he dosnt watch porn
and that was just totally random. i am being totally random.. only because im bored and i cant
sleep but i need sleep.. i had a horrible sleep last night and had none.
i love you baby boyyyy
kkkkk <33
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| its not your fault so please stop your crying now |
[09 Jan 2008|10:56pm] |
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im a good mood.. sort of :]
im hiding such a wonderful thing right now and i wish i could tell all of you but i cant.. not yet atleast because its a very big deal. but you will know soon! ha! lol but it sucks because i just want to get it out there i hate keeping things inside.
i love downloading old music! reminds me of soo many memorys
okay sooo nothing has been going on.. i have been doing the same thing everynight for the past week only cuz im sick.. staying up all night than falling asleep at like 5 am and sleeping until like 6 pm.. i need to get out of that habbit i miss my days..today was like the only day i seen the sun this whole week.. thats bad.
iam so jealous of all these girls wearing these cute clothes.. i forgot how to dress cute :[ idk why i think its because ive been basiclly married for two years ahah and i didnt care alot. plus everything is getting so expensive. whyyy?!!??
mmmm old, brand new songs :] missed them so much!
everyone should write in there livejournal again... please!
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| 2008 bitches |
[07 Jan 2008|02:31am] |
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happy new years!
anyways.. 2007 suckd fucking dick. i hated it so much.. probley one of the worse years of my life. i am so happy its a new year and i can tell its going to be good, knock on wood!!! hung out with chelsea and her boyfriend and friends on new yrs eve..got really really drunk.. but it was a good drunk not a sick one.. it was good. i didnt hang out with jared though which really suckd. i wanted to be with him when the ball dropped and have our kiss :[
.....me and jared our still together! our 2 years just passed :] its exciting.. even if it is just two years thats alot to work at when you start out with nothing and its worht it trust me especially if you love that person so much and your willing to take your time to spend it with them an grow together.. yeah deff worth it.
i dont feel like im getting any older, not that i wanna be old cause i dont want to get old and die.. but it seems like everyone else is growing up so fast and shit. i feel 12 still for some reason.
im boreeeeeeeed.. i wish live journal was cool again.. myspace came along and took its spot light..
yeeep. nothing to type. bored bored bored... and im fucking sick.. yeah i had the flu or some bullshit for a couple days but now im getting over it but i have this horrible cough and it feels like someone is cuttting my throat everytime i cough!!!!!!
i live in washington.. and i dont talk to any of my friends from here.. it sucks.. i hate it.. idk why i dont talk to them no more.. everyone has changed our like split apart or either does E or heroin or some crazyy drugs now lmfaoo.. seirously people are fucked up. but i miss some people... i miss devan.. i was just reading her livejournal.. shes so down to earth and funnyyy as fuckkkkkkk!.. i love you dev if you ever see this ahah ;] call me boo 5862426681
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| i wake up to snow when it was just summer last week. |
[19 Mar 2007|02:01pm] |
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OKAY so... i never wright in here, who am i kidding saying im going to start writing in here all the time. it is nice though sometimes so Im going to leave it at that... that im going to wright in here sometimes.
lots have been going on since my last entry.. its now march lol and me and boyfriend had are one year on December 28th and now we've been together for a one year and 2 1/2 months <3 its nice.. i love it, I LOVE HIM! lol but were doing good.
i moved in with my mom in like December but than i moved out because she was a crazy bitch and i just cant stand living there. its so boring.. so i moved back up to 28 mile with my dad and now me and him are getting along and i like it like that.. but when i moved out of my moms i hated her for how she acted and the things she did.. she was like a 21 yr old sister to me and it got really annoying. i want a mom honestly not a 21 yr old sister all the time. but were fine now and thats how i look at her still.. as a 21 yr old sister who i see once in awhile.
my dad has a girlfriend, shes cool her names Evelyn an to me she is like my mom.. i like that but shes a cool mom in ways but not like a 21 yr old sister. shes cool because she smokes ciggerates and we allways go and smoke together and talk about anything an everything an i like that and she gives me good advice!
ive been hanging out with my friend Jackie allot.. i like it! its fun.. i missed hanging out with her :)
its funny because her mom is Korean and she was really strict on me and Jackie when we first starting hangin out in like 7th 8th grade and she wouldn't let Jackie do anything an thats when i became a lil rebel lol jjk but i was really bad at that age. but anyways.. we would always say i would get my license and car first because my parents weren't as strict an we would drive around an i would come get her an stuff all the time and now she got her license before me and a car LOL and shes the one picking me up all the time lol its funny but i just don't have my stinking license because i failed parer ell parking on my road test..
still not in school.. starting though in April i think. im trying to get into either Ucal again or night school and hopefully this week i take my road test and get my license because i already have a car to buy and i really need to start driving myself to places because i have AA classes now in April in Mt.clemens and i live all the way at 28 mile an i have to find some way to school because my dad works and everything and i need to get Melanie my little sister to school and ughh.. so much to do!
thats really it. nothing exciting going on in my life..
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| divorce/wonderful boy/winter/drop out/doggggy |
[09 Dec 2006|03:26am] |
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okay so i havnt wrote in this in forever, i think i say that in like all my latest journal entries.. ha.. umm well i think im going to really write in this now since it prolly did help me with gettin things out of my head and all.
so lets start out on my parents.. okay ive mentiond them gettin a divorce im sure.. so its almost offical now and like it took like forever to do it. i dont even care its old news to me and totally perdictable..yeeuh. its fileing right now or somthing idk. my dad moved out he lives on like 28 mile now n campground. and i live on 26 still but im moving with my mom to this apartment on dequindre 19 mile range area by like 4 bears water park if anyone knows where that is. anyways its jus me my lil sis and my mom. my brother is with my dad. its kinda cool cuz i dont have to deal with all this drama coming home and shittt and other life drama i have going on.
moving on ab0out the boyfriend. hes wonderful! almost 1 yeearrrr finally! veryyy excited! like in 18 days or somthing it will be ONE YEaR! and ppl thought it would never last.. pfft yeuh right! i know were ment to be and im very happy with him and how things have been going even thoe relationships always have there ups and downs..but we manage to get threw that stuff... ive been basiclly living with him. i adore his parents they adore meeee its just great! and things r going way better then they were in the beginning.. which i thought the beggining was like the best part?! idkkk i worked hard for this relationship to be where it is now and im happy i went threw the things i did n accomplished my goals for us. i love him. i really do.. and i know wat love actully is...an this is the first time i ever felt it in my life.
winter is gay..BUT snow is pretty once in awhile and cute winter clothes.. just hate the whole... lazy dont wanna get out of bed n shit thing.. ughhhhh
I DROPPED OUT of romeo.. well RETC enterprise thing. it didnt work for me. SCHOOL in generel dosnt work for me idk why i really wish it did. i realllly do! but i wont let myself be some fuck up and im probley going to night school or somthing like next yr.. it all depends because jareds family might move to vegas in like a yr or 6 months.. im guessing when jare gets off probation but i would be going with them! ( i know verrry exciting!) an theres all sorts of beauty schools an shit to do out there an thats all i wanna do is go to beauty school or somthing in that category..but jareds family is very succesffullll very business and just real smart with life and i think im good with the whole job, making money thing an living good as HELL!
and tommaorw i have to give away my dog that i love soo fucking much cuz were moving to my apartment and shizzzz :( :( hes a boxer and hes the nicest thing ever an hes my lil old man! hes 8 omggggg i love him!
poor brutis :(
well thats prettyyy much it.. nothing has been going on. went to this stupid hookah bar tonight in royal oak and then to butterflys pool hall with some ppl jared knows. jare taught me how to play pool but i suckk and we played pin ball but i had bad luck tonight an wasnt playing good at anything :( oh well.. well im offf to go sleep with my babbby!!! night lovahs!
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| you and dat bootyyy.. omg wow that song |
[04 Aug 2006|12:08am] |
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UGH!! ive been really sick latley and totally stressd out..i hate drama bullshit or like things that are fucking stupid and i get totally stressd OUT about.. and i worry way to much.. ha my meds they dont work. they make my heart race and make me even more sad somtimes. they make me feel like im really not there.. idk anymore
mine and jareds 7 months just passed on the 1st! yay for us!
i wanna puke... im SICKKKKK EWWWW i hate this. honestly i fell like im overdosing or somthing geez.
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| summer 06 |
[23 Jul 2006|01:15am] |
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so far my summer has been pretty good, not as good as i thought it would probley be but idk yet because its still july. but me and jare are still together lol almost 7 months now.. :) ive been haning out with my best friend chelsea alot. i havnt partyd in like.. pshh forever. i dont drink no more i cant even remember the last time i did. i think ive only been to like 2 partys this summer. like not even! i think one of them was when school was still in.
im probley the happiest i could ever be right now. i love life! even though there are those bad times and everything but i get threw it. little things make me mad though now. its fucked up but w.e.. my anxiety is worse now i think from just all the stress i had with like my parents almost getting a divorce or like jared or somthing.
i cant wait till august. finally going to be 16. woo.. not lol but ive been waiting for it, im sure everyone waited for that age.
umm.. i busted my eyebrow open like a couple days ago. i should of gotten like 2 stitches but i was to scared to go to the hospital so i rocked a butterfly band aid :) and its getting better now! but it hurt like a bitch.. i was gettin dressd and i dropped my shirt on the floor. and as i bent down to get it i smacked my head into the corner of my bed post and its wood and kinda sharp. it started bleeding soooo bad lmao i started crying just because i saw so much blood on my face.
hmmmm tommarow is the fraser fire works im probley going to that with chelsea and ash. hopefully jared too :) were sapoused to go out to lunch or somthing tommarow and get smoothies too lol :)
life is good.
friends are good.
boyfriend is good.
so i would have to say... everything is just gooooood! besides the hot ass weather and ive been needing to go effing shopping for some more summer clothes.
i want breast implants. :/
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[28 May 2006|01:41am] |
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lots have been going on. i dont feel like explaining but i know one thing.. when everything seems to be going perfect, SOMTHING always has to go wrong.
im still with jared. 31st of may 5 months.. yeah :)
lol but.. theres Minus's behind it. but im strong..!
i love jared though and im pretty sure about.. very sure.. OKAY IM DONE! ha
<3
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| friday is going to be 60 degrees?! |
[05 Mar 2006|03:14pm] |
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alright well as you can see i dont update much.
one because parents took away the internet cuz i wasnt going to school. basiclly..
and two because i dont care that much about livejournal. ha!
anyways im bored and at the library so i decided to update.
not that anyone reads mine i dont think an comments. but who cares! so yeah there is some minus's in my life right now. smoking is hard to quit..i havnt accomplished anything on that. im so behind in school its not even funny im dropping out so that means next yr i wont be in school ill be working at a tanning salon or somthing girly like that. umm.. me an jared are still together! 2 months goin on 3 baby! :) thats a plus but hes been real sick an i havnt seen him in a week which sucks though but whatever im kewl with it. its getting alot warmer out school is almost out yes! uhh a minus... me and friends arent very close no more it seems and like i feel that i cant trust them i dont like that and it bothers me so much but i really cant do nothing about that cuz its not like i can change them or somthing you know?!
umm.. im going to court soon i think for my truencey in school. i have to be in school everyday and i cant have like absences or tardies or somthing idk. idc no more i hate school i dont belong there. i hate like seirosuly 85% of the people there, there annoying as hell! but idk im going to go byesssss!
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| i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu |
[18 Jan 2006|09:01pm] |
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everything that I love in this world as gotta be the greatest thing in this world if I love it!
omgs life is great i love it! KOOLS
jared is amazing
my friends are amazing
no drama really so far
american idol is dumb thats all i hear ppl talking about
i love life. MY LIFE
music is a big everything to me
school is shit like always.
im going to counicling now which idc about, my school is WHACK though
im tan
im going shopping soon
mr.nuttals class is the best class ever and makes me so happy!
i love jared. and im seirous!
im over brandin mueller. that took like 3 years. im GLAD its over
i do need to hang out with old friends though
i hate winter, but i hear its going to warm up
my parents are usually allways cool
i say lols to much now
jared changed me
sam is my best i love her
sam changed me
my life is changed
im a new person. completley
i think differntly
i pass partys and drinking up
i dont smoke that at all.. im quiting i dont even buy packs
im going to save money by not buying ciggerattes
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table cellpadding=5><tr><td>  | | The Sudden Departure
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLMf)
Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call.
You are The Sudden Departure.
You've been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you're a really fantastic girl who doesn't really know what she wants, and you've broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling of falling in love, but once you're there, either boredom or the old "grass is greener" syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes the flesh. And then the toiletries.
Your exact opposite:
The Intern
Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer
| We know you're not the classic "love 'em and leave 'em" type, at least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding tendencies for that. But even though you're theoretically looking to settle down, you don't settle long on one person. "Serial monogamist" is probably something you hear a lot. "Emotionally loose" is another way to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties, it doesn't really make much difference. Of course, it's not really your fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose.
ALWAYS AVOID: The Backrubber, The Gentleman
CONSIDER: The Vapor Trail, someone just like you
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| BREAK WAS AMAZING! |
[03 Jan 2006|03:45pm] |
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all i have to say is wow!
break was amazing. drama filled, but AMAZING! i got real close with a couple people i thought i wouldnt never get close with. i met alot of new people that are really nice and arent fake, i drank alot and saw lots of cops, got pulled over once and got scared shittless lol, got stopped by a lady cop because we ran out of gas an was on the side of the road,she was KEEEWL! which was kinda my fault! i took them into the wrong directions. ummm got drunk alot duh! lol me and sam became very close an hung out basiclly everyday and had the times of our life and also the worst times of our lives. we cryd together,laughed together,slept together lmao,shared so many things together.. just everything. it was great..
and i met jared. wow! im not even going to tell you about him because it would be just to damn long! lol but.. jared.. is amazing thats all i can say and i love this kid with all my heart and ever since this break n getting close with sam an jared and meeting new people. my life has changed so unbelievably much its amazing i love my life right now. but only one thing is effecting my life right now but i cant say it.. but anyways. i love you jared and im allways going to be here for you no matter what happends!
schhool is tommarow i dont think i going because no one will be here to take my sis to the bus stop ahaahah! so i have to.. but idk lol
im tired.. this break wore me out completley and i havent gotten any sleep!
i also feel bad for promiseing people things i shouldnt have because i didnt keep to my word and im sorry.
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| IM DONE |
[26 Nov 2005|12:20pm] |
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im done with drinking. why does my family have to be alcoholics.. and why does it have to "run in our Blood"?
damn.
okay, so i got drunk and beat up some guy that i dont even know because i had to BABYSIT A DAMN 17 YEAR OLD DRUNK!... wtf i hate that shit.. i shot-guned(sp?) 3 beers at chucks, then bounced and went to this chick stephanies with some people. drank some captains there and then we all got rooms. and at the hotel i drank seirously. almost a fith of captains and wasnt even that drunk yet, i was trying so hard to get drunk and then i have to babysitt a damn leight weight, 17 year old drunk and. ugh it killed my buzzed.. fuck! and just there was drama drama. im done
yeah :/ i wont be drinking for awhile now. BUT it depends on im with i guess.
ehh whatever.
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I wish that we could,
blow up the speakers
Over and over, tell jokes and secrets
F o r e v e r, your lady . . .
you act right, then maybe
Ain't _______nothing to talk about
with the music loud So they wont hear
me say. . .Ahhhh, hah hah, hah hahhh
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| he loves meee and not you |
[04 Oct 2005|09:22pm] |
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shoulder, not because she's sleepy, but because she wants to be closer to you
I'm the girl who likes to be kissed under the stars, more then inside your bedroom or in a expensive resturant....
I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss...
I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything...
I'm the girl who laughs at your jokes....
I'm the girl who will have many inside jokes with you and remember each one....
I'm the girl who will brag about you to all of my friends...
I'm the girl who smells like they just stepped out of the shower....
I'm the girl who realizes that you say things but dont always mean them....
I'm the girl who will listen to you talk...
I'm the girl who's heart jumps when your ringtone on my phone comes on...
I'm the girl who really does want to be friends after a break up...
I'm the girl who won't kick you where it hurts for fun,, I know it hurts
I'm the girl who loves when you hug me for no apparent reason...
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| myspace love letters are the best.. |
[04 Oct 2005|09:12pm] |
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Get a real job
Keep the wind to your back and the sun on your face
All the immediate unknowns
Are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate
Does he love you?
Does he love you?
Will he hold your tiny face in his hands?
I guess it's spring, I didn't know
It's always seventy-five with no melting snow
A married man, he visits me
I receive his letters in the mail twice a week
And I think he loves me
And when he leaves her
He's coming out to California
I guess it all worked out
There's a ring on your finger and the baby's due out
You share a place by the park
And run a shop for antiques downtown
And he loves you
Yeah he loves you
And the two of you will soon become three
And he loves you
Even though you
Used to say you were flawed if you weren't free
Let's not forget ourselves good friend
You and I were almost dead
And you're better off for leaving
Yeah you're better off for leaving
Late at night
I get the phone
You're at the shop sobbing all alone
Your confession it's coming out
You only married him
You felt your time was running out
But now you love him
And your baby
At last you are complete
But he's distant and you found him
On the phone pleading saying "Baby I love you
And I'll leave her and I'm coming out to California"
Let's not forget ourselves good friend
I am flawed if I'm not free
And your husband will never leave you
He will never leave you for me
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| i want to see you |
[29 Sep 2005|10:11pm] |
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ill update at the end of the weekand
<3 this one boy is amazing
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| aahahahaha |
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ew FUCK YOU!!!
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